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Recommend Me Some Music

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  This is my latest treat to myself. It's an Mp3 player. You know, like we used to have? Way back when in - oooh - the early 2000s?! That's basically it. You attach it to your computer via USB; you transfer some Mp3 files across; you plug in your headphones and you listen whilst you walk/bus/train somewhere. All whilst not being on your phone. I tried it out on a long canal walk yesterday, and it was blissful . I got right back into listening to Muse's 'Absolution', and was immediately air-drumming along, no doubt to the amusement of the ducks/other towpath users. And one of the things I realised yesterday was that whilst I have a good collection of music now; mainly metal, but also some classical, and - more recently - some different genres to those; I don't have as wide a collection as I would like. So this is where YOU come in [yes, you!]: I would like you to send me your recommendations for some albums that I should listen to from start to finish. No real re...

Curation, Compilation and Consternation

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  I'm very much in project mode, as the MoGian year draws to a close, and the Year of the Dan approaches. A couple of those projects seem similar - I am working on curating my music collection for the purposes of putting onto a - gasp - portable MP3 player, that I can use to solely focus on enjoying that music (and hopefully new music) again. Part of which also includes a long-running plan to condense all of my years of musical listening into eight compilations. Another project is to curate my remaining DVDs into a 'definitive' collection. IE taking a snapshot of where I am today, and all the films that have helped define me; and corralling those into some sort of collection also. Aside from the obvious difference of medium - one purely audio, another audio-visual - they do feel similar, and both sit under the wider category of 'refining what I retain in physical form', by way of hopefully reducing the amount of physical possessions I have. But what is curious are a...

I Am The Answer

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  "Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so." ~ Douglas Adams, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy Upon this occasion of my 42nd birthday, you will find me this morning visiting the grave of Douglas Adams. After all it has been his influence that means I ascribe some meaning to this otherwise mostly unremarkable milestone. And so, because I have afforded myself the indulgence of making today a day of particular importance, I am in turn keen to reflect on where and who I am these days, and publish that here for those who care to know me. For those of you following along at home, you will recall that the last calendar year in particular has been one of important self-acknowledgement and discovery; first came the realisation that my mental health was not where I wanted it to be - after a few important but difficult moments - and second came the work to get to a better place. Supported by my incredible partner Nessa, and some very understanding professionals; I took on both...

Operating Outside the Overton Window

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  Photo courtesy of Murat Halici Oh yes. That's more like it from this blog! For those of you that are (like I was) unfamiliar with 'the Overton Window'; it's essentially a way of describing the 'window of normality' that exists in the political sphere - IE what is actual governmental policy is at the centre of the window; beside that is what is popular (but maybe not actually policy); the next circle outside of that is what the populace would generally deem sensible; and then - as you start to move outside this window - things are still acceptable (maybe like people smoking weed; not legally encouraged in the UK, but seems to be broadly accepted as happening); and then things become more radical - and the 'unthinkable' is the furthest away from what that particular society would accept. I apologise to the political theorists I've just upset in that bad overview; it seems a lot more detailed and nuanced than that - but for the purposes of this blog; ...

I think you ought to know I'm feeling [very] depressed

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Photo credit: The Manic Macrographer Preamble Marvin the Paranoid Android is a character introduced in the first Hitchhiker's book [well, okay pedants; technically they're introduced in the radio show!], and I think for a long time they were my touchpoint reference for the term 'depression'; via the quote above. In actuality, whilst I know Douglas Adams himself was depressed at times, I don't think he'd claim Marvin was an in-depth exploration of what it means to be depressed. Quite often Marvin was portrayed as a robot with the brain the size of a planet - IE great intelligence - and all Zaphod and co. were asking them to do was to open doors, escort Ford and Arthur to the bridge, keep an eye on the surface - that sort of thing. For 'depression' read 'frustration at the triviality of it all'. And I think maybe if I'd thought about this more, I would have realised this wasn't an in-depth exploration of what it might be to feel depressed -...

I ATE'NT DEAD

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  As the title suggests, I'm still here. Just wanted to let folk know that really - especially those of you that aren't necessarily in current contact with me. There's not much to report on at this moment in time - Project Chrysalis is ongoing, but progress is - deliberately - slow. Rest assured I am taking good care of myself, and those closest to me are being exceptionally wonderful, and I truly do not know how much more time I will need. And I am okay with that. Consider me in 'maintenance mode'. A lot of my additional functions are not in operation right now, and I'm focussing on the basics; and then - when the inclination takes me - I'm exploring my interests and the social circles I have been a part of, and figuring out what works; what I might come back to; and what I might need to leave behind. My aim is to deliver a more tangible and meaningful update towards the end of the current series (or around the end of September for you Gregorians out there)...

Project Chrysalis

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  The concept of selfishness... is a pretentious way to begin a blog. However, it is also something that I think gets portrayed in a negative light when you are young and developing. Probably for sensible reasons; like if a society wants to operate - it will need people to be external-facing, open to engagement; and maybe not too selfish. Like - yes you all have basic needs like food, water, shelter, clothing, ruthless efficiency, and an almost fanatical devotion to the Pope - but there is a collective need to fairly distribute most of these things amongst us all, so you can't just go off on your own and take all the resources [looking at you, <insert obvious villain of the moment>]. And I think there is some truth there. However as my fortieth year has been and gone; I began sensing that the accumulation of experiences that I was, was no longer who I felt I could be, or wanted to be. Not in some violent, horrific realisation sort of way - to be very clear - I've had a lu...