I Am One Years Old Today
A year ago today I woke up feeling the closest to nothingness, that I hope I ever experience. Quite what had led me to this low point, I am not sure, other than a combination of factors; but I grow increasingly certain that one of the main reasons I felt so down is because of the recent realisations of how good life can be. That, and an imbalance of chemicals in my brain. Soon after I took on a course of anti-depressants, which I finished in time for my 42nd birthday, and the start of the Year of the Dan. And as I start to emerge from my Project Chrysalis, I've taken to the idea of rebirth as an appropriate analogy for what I am now navigating. - But I wanted to try and capture exactly what it feels to be just one year old. Because it's actually quite challenging to realise. A lot of who I was before my rebirth seems to be lost to memory [as in, I can still remember bits of it; I have recollections of key moments and many people]; I just don't relate to that person any m...